Lost In Beauty-

Wednesday, January 31, 2007

whY mUZ I bE sO kPo n lOOk aT peoPle'S bLog.. iF i hasn'T saW iT oN heR bLog , i wouLdn'T havE nOe.. N i duNNo wheN u wiLL teLL mI thE trUtH.. U betRAyed the trusT i leFT iN YoU.. y? Y mUZ U dO taT.. i nOe iT miGHt be jUSt aN urgE.. buT dO u noE iT cauSed a biG hoLe iN mY heArt.. i hAve jUst learNed tO truSt n jUst wheN i thoT i trUst U weLL enouGH... U diD thIs tO mE.. dOUBLe bLow iS .. ItS noT uR 1st aTTempT.. aLL tHE eFFort thaT yoU have puT IN foR thE pasT feW moNtHS arE wastEd.. i duNNo if i'm pusHinG U tOO harD n coS the siDe eFFecT oR U duN eveN carE foR mY fEELinGS.. U caN dO aLL thEse behiNd mY bacK n yeT preenD THAt nTH haPPen.. nO siGn oF guilT waS seeN.. iTS scarY.. wiLL teRe be a secOnd tiMe? oN anOthEr iSSue?? i duNNo.. i reaLi duNNo.. tO trUSt U agaIn oR nOT.. a reLatiOnshIP woNt worK oUt iF therE's nO truSt.. buT i woN waNNA giF uP oN yoU.. sO nOw.. i mUZ slOwiLy piCK uP mYselF n aLL mY shattERed fEEliNGs bacK toGethER n leaRned to trUst yOu agaiN.. i duNNo iF i caN dO iT.. bUt i wiLL tY mY besT,, i wiLL trY tO foRgiVe n foRgeT foR Ur saKe.. but I nEEd tiMe.. n i duNNo hOw lOng i wiLL take.. bUt froM NOw ON.. thERe wiLL be a baRRier In mY hearT.. there will be a phobIA.. pLS ProVe tO mE thaT U R siNcerE IN chanGinG.. n maDe aLL thOSe nagatiVE tHOTS iN mY heraT disAppeaR.. eLSe.. tHE woRSe woUld havE tO coMe suM daYS..

*learniNG tO trusT aLL oVer agaIn froM thiS momenT onwarDS.. 2:03:37 310107*

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Tuesday, January 30, 2007

whOahaA.. iT haS been sO lOng siNce i lasT bLog.. sO manY PPL r comPLaininG.. sORRie,, coS i'm suPer bZ recenTLY,, aLL prOjecT deaDliNS iN thESE 2 wEEks,, n nExt wiLL be exaM,, iTS kiLLinG ME maN,, jUSt haNdLed in sweN todAY,, thIS frI wiLL be csaD,, nexT mOn will be wBAt n mY cDS n mY coMM skiLL pResentatIOn,, oMG.. tP is crazY,, iTS kiLLiNg US,, eveN estheR babE osO stRESSed uP,, i haTE thIS seM!

aLthoUGh sCH woRK iS kiLLing mE,, mY darLing iS dotiNg and loVing me doUbLe.. sO aLL in aLL i stiL gaiNed.. hahA.. babY,, soRRie foR waT i diD oN sUndaY.. i duN meaN tO huRT yOu n i promiSe i woNt dO thaT agAIn n i wiLL treaT U ziLLion tiMEs beTTA frOm Now oN.. I PROMISE..

haD a gREAt tiME toDAy,, excePt foR sweN LAb.. dr fOOL iS reaLi a fOOL! sO damN striCt.. latE foR 5 mINS deduct 5%.. soMe mOre maDe mE kaN chioNg untiL i 4geT tHIS n taT,, bUT i'M oSo suPEr bLur n absenT-miNded.. hahA*

aftEr swEn i wenT tO lOOk foR bI n aCCompanY hiM to taKe mC frOm poLycliNIc cOS he oversLept.. i waS super haPPie coS he caN aCC mE foR shOPPinG session,, haHA* sO bADDie oF Me.. wE wenT tO heereN n i bougHt a heels froM U.R.S and a tee frOm newurbanmale,, i wiLL upload thEir piCS sOOn,,

e words ON thE tEE arE suPer cUte lOR,, iT sayS

" If yOu tiNK haviNg sEx iS a paiN IN uR aSS, theN i tiNK yOU arE doiNg it wronGLy"

haHA* oNce i saw iT, i loVe iT maN,, aftEr tryiNg i bouGHt iT straighTawaY..

shOP arD n babY saw e levi'S shoeS thaT he desired lONg agO.. aFter sOme consideraTIon he bouGHt iT,, waS sO haPPie,, coS recentLy aLL thE stuFF thaT he boUGht waS choSen bY Me n i lOve theM oN hiM,, suPer shUAi onE oKie,, haHA*

afTEr a tirinG shOPPing seSSioN(babY keep grubblinG taT hiS leGs arE suPer tirEd) we wenT to LuckY pLAza for dinnEr n wenT tO hIS pLace tO sLAck,,

I wouLd neVA forgeT whaT yOu tOLd me todaY 290107 rouGHLy 850pM..

"I feel sO fortunate to have met you, I will always keep you by my side..

I wiLL be tere tO drY uP uR tEArs wheN U r saD aS i wiLL nevA leavE U aLone.."

imaGine Ur bF hoLd uR chIn loOk into uR eyES n saiD aLL thESe woRds.. omG.. even iF iTs jUSt sweEt taLK i osO shuanG taOoooooooooooooooOOOOOOOO.. haHA* bUT MY babY meaN iT oKie,, hahA* i cant coNTroL myseLf,, mY heaRT melt the moment he toLd me thaT n beiNG a xiaO nU reN.. i Cried,, hahA* i'M a soft-heaRted crY babY,, hahA*

RelationshIp iS jUSt liKe a poT oF flower.. e moRe u pUt inTO iT,, the more yoU wiLL geT,, sO cheriSh aLL yoU havE nOW n liVe everydaY w/o anY regreTS.. foRgeT aLL e unhaPPy stuFF n enjOY aLL tHe haPPie moMentS.. liFe wiLL be happiEr thAt waY..

aLriGHt.. loVey doVey foR a daY,, i havE tO chioNg foR mY projecT foR a wEEK.. siaNZ,, wO hUI jiA yoU de,, i woNt disaPPoinT yOu,,

*I woULd pUt iN aLL e besT foR ouR reLAtioNshiP.. i woUld noT beaR tO huRt yOu agAin,, neiTHer wiLL i giVe uP oN yOu.. lOVE YA*

the beauty exposed ;