whY mUZ I bE sO kPo n lOOk aT peoPle'S bLog.. iF i hasn'T saW iT oN heR bLog , i wouLdn'T havE nOe.. N i duNNo wheN u wiLL teLL mI thE trUtH.. U betRAyed the trusT i leFT iN YoU.. y? Y mUZ U dO taT.. i nOe iT miGHt be jUSt aN urgE.. buT dO u noE iT cauSed a biG hoLe iN mY heArt.. i hAve jUst learNed tO truSt n jUst wheN i thoT i trUst U weLL enouGH... U diD thIs tO mE.. dOUBLe bLow iS .. ItS noT uR 1st aTTempT.. aLL tHE eFFort thaT yoU have puT IN foR thE pasT feW moNtHS arE wastEd.. i duNNo if i'm pusHinG U tOO harD n coS the siDe eFFecT oR U duN eveN carE foR mY fEELinGS.. U caN dO aLL thEse behiNd mY bacK n yeT preenD THAt nTH haPPen.. nO siGn oF guilT waS seeN.. iTS scarY.. wiLL teRe be a secOnd tiMe? oN anOthEr iSSue?? i duNNo.. i reaLi duNNo.. tO trUSt U agaIn oR nOT.. a reLatiOnshIP woNt worK oUt iF therE's nO truSt.. buT i woN waNNA giF uP oN yoU.. sO nOw.. i mUZ slOwiLy piCK uP mYselF n aLL mY shattERed fEEliNGs bacK toGethER n leaRned to trUst yOu agaiN.. i duNNo iF i caN dO iT.. bUt i wiLL tY mY besT,, i wiLL trY tO foRgiVe n foRgeT foR Ur saKe.. but I nEEd tiMe.. n i duNNo hOw lOng i wiLL take.. bUt froM NOw ON.. thERe wiLL be a baRRier In mY hearT.. there will be a phobIA.. pLS ProVe tO mE thaT U R siNcerE IN chanGinG.. n maDe aLL thOSe nagatiVE tHOTS iN mY heraT disAppeaR.. eLSe.. tHE woRSe woUld havE tO coMe suM daYS..
*learniNG tO trusT aLL oVer agaIn froM thiS momenT onwarDS.. 2:03:37 310107*
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